Tears of joy and tears of pain...

Advice on this one is welcome!

I have a friend who's world has been turned upside down! Poor thing is loosing her best friend, her lover, her home, and what she feels like is all her friends. I know all too well what this feels like and what strength it takes just to get out of bed. To make matters worse Monday was her first day at a new job where she is expected to perform and she can't think straight. Her heart has been crushed and the next thirty days are going to be even harder for her until they both move out of their place. Not to mention that she has to find a new place to live which isn't the easiest thing to do here since there are a million and one scummy rentals if you want to pay two arms a leg and a foot for a matchbook with mold and undoubtedly something broken. Finding a decent place to live is the challenge here in paradise. So I am helping her in any way that I can; I opened up my home to her and told her no worries she can stay here anytime she needs a break from her place and if she doesn't find a new place in time that she can stay here until she does, free. I made her a deal that she has to cook me dinner one night and she can stay as long as she needs. It's really no issue with me, I live in a one bedroom house alone so there is plenty of space plus I am hardly ever home so it doesn't bother me. I am really worried about her, I drooped off two flowers on her car window the other morning with a note. I wanted her to feel like she has friends and not so alone. I know how upside-down her world is right now and how lost and alone she feels, I've had my heart broken before too. Not a good place to be. It is hard when you commit yourself and your life to one person 100% and it just doesn't work out, you can't help but think what is wrong with me? What did I do? Sometimes realizing that you can move on is the toughest thing to do. All I can do is tell her it is going to hurt and you have to take one day at a time in baby steps and eventually it will be okay. Not to worry about the small stuff like moving or your job b/c those things just have a way of falling into place. I know that she has the strength to get through this I just hope that she sees that she does too. She will and time will heal but it will be a long road for her.


So does anyone have any heart-break advice?


Oh and I have been so busy this past week, with hanging out with my heart-broken friend, work full-time, school (my classes are pretty hard right now) and I have been spending a gang of time with my other friend who had her baby last Friday/Saturday. Friday after work I went to the hospital (she had been there since 3pm it was now 11pm...Poor thing) and I stayed there with her fam bam until she pushed her 8lb 4ounce, 20 1/2 inches, beautiful baby girl, Marayah out into the world at 3:02 am Saturday. Her aunt is my friend so that is how I met her. Well I ended up going to bed at 8am on Saturday; Siouxsie and I were so excited and awake from being there all night that we went back to my place. I saw that the school across the street was watering their lawn so I made S put on a sweater of mine and took her outside then just took off, I didn't tell her what I was doing I just made a run for the sprinklers and she followed. So we spent a good 30 minutes playing in the sprinklers laughing and having a blast, I don't think I have done that since I was maybe like 10 or so. Then we went back to my pad took showers and changed and decided that the sun was due to come up so we went to the beach and swung on the swings to watch the sunrise. Well about an hour and a half into it we decided it was too foggy to see the sun and we went home and crashed out. So far she is a really good baby she hardly cries and I love babies so it's fun for me :) So life has been pretty full but I am good. I love summer!


Say a prayer or a nice thought for my friend please, she needs it :) Thanks guys!

Me.

Let me reintroduce myself; I have grown, died and cleansed parts of myself. Like a snake I have shed a skin to become anew. I am learning who I am so forgive me.

I learned that noone can love your heart until you love your heart. You must be comfortable with you, respect your being, enjoy your own company, and make clear your intentions in your heart BEFORE anyone else can.

A sunset is like a rebirth, a baptism to me.

A smile is infectiously contagious.

There are other people like me out there, we all have the same problems, the same issues.


I learned that I feel whole by helping other people feel whole. Restoring their hope, their passion and their freedom to love.

I learned because I am this way, I will always hurt. My soul will ache, bleed and occasionally die at times and I am okay with that because I know that what I get back, the joy in others, freedom, it will easily overflow me again, renew and lift me.


Children are a key to happiness, when we let our inner child free imagination takes over and you enjoy the simple things.

I drew for the first time in a mass public setting and I learned that I have the power to affect people. I am an artist and expression comes thru in what I do.
I am not scared to show that anymore.

I am worth it.


I am better when I push myself.

I have a long road ahead of me and many mountains behind. THANK YOU for those who have helped me get here so far.

Finding fault in things spreads to all that you do, you become unhappy and sick.
Forlorn.
Never underestimate the Power of suggestion.


I love to travel, to see new places and meet new people.

I have been to some amazing places in the last month.


Thank you for not giving up hope on me; checking in on me a stranger in a cyber-place, you know who you are. :)